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This Is More Than a Benevolent Relationship
There are so many wonderful things forming in my life right now. I am writing more, working actively on my creative plans, and generally more self-aware. I can trace my partner’s influence and support in all of these things. I started to think that he is the ultimate benevolent presence.
And I immediately realized that’s not right. Benevolence is non-judgmental, non-harming, and well-wishing. But it is also passive. It shines and warms like the sun, but it doesn’t help you search out harder and darker places.
Instead, he is an enriching presence. Enrichment is all those benevolent things, plus it is active, focused, and challenging. Enrichment is a lantern that will walk into what ever darkness and show it to you, help you understand it.
I spent many years in frivolity before this relationship. It was lovely for the time I was in and for the place I was in. My heart was broken so badly that it needed a place to rest and breathe and get itself back into working order. So I tucked it away and let my body take over. I just played. And played. And played some more.
When I was done playing, this amazing being emerged into my life and took my hands. He took me down deep. We dove into depths where I didn’t think I could breathe, but I could. And now here we are, actively enriching each other. Going…